From the second I exited my mother's womb I looked upon this day, January 19, 2010, with fear and disdain. But now that I've had some time to prepare for the shock, I guess turning thirty really isn't that bad.
For the past month or so my moods have varied from in a funk with a chance of crankiness to thunderstorm of tears. I'm not upset that I'm getting older, but upset that I haven't accomplished everything that I had wanted to by the time I turned thirty. And when friends and family hear how disappointed I am in myself, their responses range from speechless to protests of "But, you're entrepreneurial" or "You're a doctor" or "You don't look thirty." But, I let these words fall on deaf ears.
But over the past few weeks, my amazing friends, family, and Sarcastically Delicious (aka boyfriend) have worked hard to convince me that I'm not a failure and that the glass is half full rather than half empty (thank you Uncle in Hotlanta). And that I still have 12 months of being thirty to accomplish the things that I would like to (in terms of the personal goals I set upon myself). I just have to give myself an extension. The mortgage company would do it if you needed a few days to make a payment, so why shouldn't I be a bit lenient on myself?
PLUS, some fabulous things happened today despite of turning 30:
1. Another beautiful day of spring like weather
2. Had an awesome skating day. I landed axel, double toe loop, double salchow, double loop, double lutz, and a double flip on one foot that I fell over on. Did all my spins ranging from flying camel to layback. I would have never dreamed that I would be able to do these things at this age. So that's something to be thankful for. And hopefully I'll still be able to do these things on my fortieth birthday.
3. Had wonderful lunch with skating coach
4. Had a productive writing day where my protagonist met her blazing hot Italian love interest
So thanks for joining in. And I promise future posts will be less of a personal nature and more focused on writing, reading, etc...
Stay Strong, Stay Wise, Just Do It!